...just now, in this moment
Next door to me, to my peaceful little old house with the sweet little porch that catches the sun...is a big construction project. It is happening right now, it was happening yesterday and the day before that and the day before that. It will be happening tomorrow too. Saturday and Sunday all is quiet, but what used to be a big grassy lawn with an apple tree and a big black walnut tree and a blue spruce and a pine tree and azaleas and grasses and an old chicken coop... is now piles and piles and piles of dirt and mud and the supports for the new foundation. Today it is warm and sunny. From my sweet little porch that catches the sun, I would be sitting and listening to the birds...hundreds of them, and watching the squirrels play..four of them and just feeling the warmth of the sun and the fresh air...but now, I stay inside with the doors closed to try and keep out the noise. It is his right, I said. It is his property and he has a right to build anything he wants to build. I told him that. I told him not to worry about what everyone thought when the big black walnut tree came down. All the neighbors miss that tree. It is his right and I don't begrudge him that... but.... I really miss what was there and I have to let it go. Now what? For the moment.. nothing. We will wait and see. See what it becomes as the huge house goes up next to my little old house with the sweet little porch.. that used to catch the sun. There won't be any sun on that little porch anymore, or in the yard where the herbs and flowers grew. Of all the things that I have had in all my years.. I will miss the sun the very most....It will be okay. It always is. Always. But, I put out to the Universe that I would like a new place in the sun. Perhaps another sweet little porch on another little old house..or a not so old house..or a sun room..or a patio.. I'll be waiting patiently and knowing that it will come at...just the right time..
